Wednesday, 25 September 2013

Reception 11.8.13

4 more days till my husband arrives ;-)
Can't wait already.

Alhamdulillah,my PR visa was approved and next week we'll go pick up my passport at German Embassy.
We hope this will be the last episode of our long distance relationship.

Finally,after 2.5 years!

As I've promised,here are some pictures from our reception last August.


*Rasa nak kawin lagi :P*

Sunday, 22 September 2013

Picnic @ Putrajaya Lakeside

Hello friends,
Today I went for a small picnic at Putrajaya lakeside,taking the full advantage of the nice weather these days.
I will never know when will I have another chance to go picnicking at nice gardens in Malaysia anymore after this,and to enjoy the heat while I still can :P

Next Thursday I will undergo an MRI scan for my next treatment,wish me luck friends!


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Pants:Brands Outlet
Candy Bag:Unbranded
Bracelet:Times Square

Friday, 20 September 2013

Solemnization 10.8.2013

Alhamdulillah,I am now married to the most wonderful guy in my life over a month ago *Sila jangan muntah :P*

Since the first time we met over 3 years ago at my work place,I knew already I would end up marrying this guy :P

Along the way,we have gone through many problems and obstacles,be it the problems from ourselves and from people's perceptions around us.

Being a girl who never tend to care what the damn people say about me or us,we're finally on one road,road to build a family in the future with God's blessing.

After over a month,today finally I want to share some of our pictures from solemnization.I will upload pictures from our reception as well ;)

Till then,

Hidaya and Ramon

Thursday, 19 September 2013

What's up with Me?

I guess I am now ready to reveal my story of my current condition now.
I am not writing this to raise any sympathy or whatsoever,and if you have been following me for a long time,you know how much I avoided writing stuff that aren't necessary and giving no benefits to others.

I want to share my experience,and how I am coping with this illness at the moment.

So,it started on 31st August,about 3 weeks ago.The morning I woke up,I realized I hds a numb sensation in my ear,it was deafness in my right ear.I completely heard nothing with it!

I thought it wasn't as serious,because I had a thought it had something to do with ear wax blocking.
So,I continued my day without thinking much about it,and on Sunday I went to see a normal doctor regarding my condition.

Doctor examined and said my right ear was full with hard ear wax and provided me with a solution prescription and noted to me to clean the ear wax by myself.

I did,and my hearing got better than before,but the mild losing sensation was still there.

Only 2 days after that,when I woke up from bed,I realized there was something ringing in my ear.It wasn't loud,subtle, but constant.

I still went to the office and took half day leave and proceeded with meeting another normal doctor.The doctor suspected ear infection and provided me with several prescriptions.

But the ringing sensation in my right still hasn't gone.

I was worried and later I proceeded to meet an ENT specialist to check my condition.
The doctor performed an examination by sucking my ear wax and later he suspected my ear drum was inflammated.

Upon leaving,my ear is still full with ringing,and not long after my first visit to the doctor,I made a second visit and after an audiology hearing test,and the test result was bad for my condition,the doctor suspected that I am suffering with a rare illness called "Sudden Onset Sensoneural Hearing loss".

Yes,scary as it sounds,that's the illness that I am having now.Although in my condition,my right ear hearing is still good,it is just the tinnitues(ringing sensation in my hear)that keeps haunting me day and night.

It has been over 2 weeks now,and the doctor provided me with several strong prescription like steroids and some multivitamins for my ear.

I made a big research regarding my illness,how does it occur and what to do for prevention,only to find out that the chance to recover depends on the individual.Some may recover fully or partially with right treatment at right time,and some may suffer it as permanent.

I haven't seen any good result regarding my prescription taking,only to find out some side effect from taking the highly dosed of the steroids,like I have gained weight especially on the facial area(damn!),but I keep praying and praying that this illness will go away and so that I can get my normal happy life back.

About over a month ago,I was the happiest girl in the world to be married to a caring and loving guy,it only lasted for a few weeks before I was diagnosed with this rare illness.

I am thankful to God anyway,because if He didn't give this illness,I may not reach closer to him.

"He may give you the things you don't need in your life,and He may not give you what you really need in your life"

For now,I am coping better with this illness and I want to stay stronger everyday for me,for my husband,for our future kids and for my religion.

I have a very understanding family and husband who always there for me in situation like this.I feel so blessed each day when my family and husband keep asking about my condition and they are also doing their best to help me,to regain the old me.

There are times when I feel so down with my current condition,all I could do was crying and crying,feeling all alone coping with this test,but I regain fast because I know,God loves me and this is why he is testing me,to see my iman.

If one day I may be destined to live with hearing aid,I have no option but to accept.

Ya Allah,
Rabbi Yassir Wala Tu 'asir

Please pray for my speedy recovery too,friends ;)

Monday, 16 September 2013

Engagement Party

Happy Malaysia day!
Today is the last day of long public holiday,and tomorrow I have to get back to work.Not long anymore,2 more weeks and I'm done with my current and first job in Malaysia.I have started working with Proton since May 2009,right after my graduation and I never expected to meet my then boyfriend there who finally legally married to me :)

When to think of this all,I could never imagine how well Allah has planned everything for His servant when I always complained about any dissatisfaction that ever happened in my life,which some of them almost killed my feelings.

I am so blessed and we should always believe in Qada' and Qadar from Allah.

2 weeks from now,my husband will come and pick me home.Yes,home,Germany.It is mainly due to my not-so-well condition now,my husband is very worried to leave me alone anymore,and I also need the biggest moral support from him,so Insya Allah if everything is well,I will be leaving Malaysia for my new home on second week of October.

Today we went to an engagement party of my friend's relative,had good food and on our way home,we stopped by at one of our favourite gardens for little sight-seeing.

I love my tie dye skirt so much.

What say you?

*I love playing with these leaves since I was a young girl*


Saturday, 14 September 2013

On Malaysia Day

Happy Malaysia day guys!
Hope you have a wonderful weekend so far.What are you up to this weekend?
Today we went to see the Bowling Tournament in Mines,tomorrow we have a wedding to attend,and on Monday we have an engagement party to attend.

So quite a weekend.

Last Wednesday I went to see the doctor regarding my condition.What the doctor told me about my illness was not a good thing,and I am in the process of recovering,but I was thinking about getting a second opinion from another doctor regarding my condition.I still don't feel like writing up about it just yet,or maybe never.

I only want to speak good things ;-)

Till then.

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Pants:Brands Outlet
Watch:Michael Kors

Monday, 9 September 2013

Stay Positive!

Hello friends,
I hope everyone is doing fine.
I'm not in the best of health at the moment,it has been over a week now,but today I decided I want to stay positive and put trust that this desease will go away ;-)

On Sunday I went to cinema with my best friend,as I said I want to spend as much time as possible with her before I leave.

In the meantime,we still don't get any news about the visa,neither we get any problem with it so far,so we hope there will be no problem at all and that I will get it pretty soon.

As I am speaking this,I still have around 2 weeks to finish my job at my company before leaving it for good.

Till then guys,
Stay positive!


Sunday, 1 September 2013


To be honest,my life before and after marriage hasn't changed that much,or maybe not yet as a week after ourwedding,we have to be separated T_T

Not that I am complaining,but I am just a bit afraid that once we reunite,I might need to change my mind that I am not a single lady anymore,who can simply do things I always do when being a single,like going out for movie and come home at anytime I want.

Of course,the thing that has changed is in anything I want to do,I have to ask permission and opinion from my husband as that's what Islam teaches us married ladies to do.

So far,my husband has been very supportive and never said no to anything I want to do ;-)

So,today I went for some movies with my best friend,as these few weeks left might be the last time we're gonna hang out as "single" ladies :P

I have another day off tomorrow,so until then!


*Tengah High :P*
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